Part 2 : Would----

Back for another day to write boring stuffs that ppl wouldn't want to read XD. If you're wondering what's the deal with the poster, it's a new John Cena movie coming out some time around March....it won't be in M'sia though cause it's still backwatered compared to other countries....Anyway, urm...currently sick(ugh...)not good, feel like crap, head feels heavy, can't barely speak, sneeze like blowing out a birthday cake for the past few hours and now writing this down for reasons I myself do not know why......let's see...what's more.......watch some spongebob special thing that i downloaded.....for like 5 times now(damn! I'm lifeless!)hmm.....what else is there...?
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oh yeah, been working lil' bit on the name weapons thingy...okay, name weapons is just bogus, i'll just say my game, it'd be easier....as I was saying, been working a lil' bit in here and there and let's just say it's getting better bit by bit each day(schooling day that is)............
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well, I just saw a few pics of a gurl I liked about an hour ago....she's happy....and that's good.....Also, "She"(a diff person), seems to be "watching" some guy to see if he's her "potential" bf...this's what I think but I'm not sure myself...anyway, they seem to be happy....well, at least "she" knows how to find a way to be...."she"s happy, my previous crush's happy, everyone's happy....what about me...????Me??? hmph....I'm just not cut out to be happy.........I'm sick, I'm lifeless, what else more do you want me to add? Short? Skiny? Stupid? Useless? Emo? Irritatting? You name it, I'm whatever you say....but just to make this clear, I'm not queer. So far, this year's been like last year to me, not kind...but the only thing that keeps me going is to reach my "Sanctuary" one day...but now....even it seems to be turning into another hell hole before I even reached there, waiting to lure me in and throw me into the endless, bottomless pit of suffering......I don't know if I wanna go there if all that awaits me there is more pain, more suffering, more agony....I don't want that anymore....I don't want to feel anymore pain, physical pain I can still handle...but mental....if I do, I'll break....I'll break and end my life before anyone realize it.....I don't know whether to stay or to go...because it seems like anywhere I go, there's just more bad things waiting for me.....and everyday I try so hard just to get by, to put a fake smile, I wear a mask that hides my pain, everyone does but mine can shatter to pieces at any moment.......I need to find peace in my life, I really do....so here's my request to anyone who's reading this, to all my friends, family, enemies, fellow readers, help me find peace back in my life, leave me be, don't torture me anymore, help me find the peace in my life I lost so long ago...and in return, I swear to repay you with kindness, it's not much, it may be hard for me to do but it's the only thing I have left that I'll do my best to deliver...just like the song 'Savin' Me' by Nickelback, if you think it is worth saving me, help me do this small favour that I request.......to all that have spend time to read the thoughts of this broken soul, I appreciate you spending time to read....and with this, I end my post for now........