†- The Broken, Beat And Scarred -†

Zzzzz....

2009-04-27T21:38:00.008+08:00

Not continuing last part's follow-up and i'll start this time with pics of things that happened some time ago...i think all happened last month til this month.....

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first pic I drew this year which I actually decide to put in abit of effort...turned out ok for me at first....but then I realized that it wasn't actually nice....so, I decided to throw it a few 1 or 2 days later....fajran said it was a real waste that I did so....but in it's place...

the second one....nice anot??? pls comment if it's nicezzz....>.< after I threw the first one, fajran said I was gonna do the same with this one...well, I might if I manage to produce a better one...MIGHT....i luv this pic~ the first pic was abt like 15-20% good in my view...this one's....abt 30-45% XD I can do much better than this...these 2 pics I drew through memory and hopefully the 3rd one(if there's gonna be one) would reach at least 60-75% nicezzz

And now....presenting....this guy!!!! here's ur belated b'day post Darren XDXDXDXD
Happy 1 month Belated Birthday!!!XD

this, this guy here ^ is gay!!! XD originally wanted to do a belated b'day post for him and his bweh-cerssssss XD but being to lazy I just din do it XDXDXDXD

...yes, this guy does indeed L.O.V.E. crystal meth...XD drew a few pics of him being a crystal meth lover and fan club president but dunno where the pics are edi XD

this happened last month I think...this guy was sleeping and the others were messing around wif this guy...i just took the pic XD

so...went to bm seminar in UM yesterday for 10 hours....waited for the bus which came 30min late...and left UM abt 30 min late as well....seminar was average....food was below average and if u tell them, they'll say "u come to stahdee or come to come to eat hah?"...aside that....today in sch play truth or dare which all mainly pick truth and those involved, most of them incl me kena kao kao...after a few turns all was forced to pick dare instead of truth and only fajran and andrew did it coz the rest which was suggested was practically embarressing XD dunno if i spelled it correctly, correct me if I'm wrong, I got a dare to go in front of a girl and do boobies sign XD a whole lot more funnier if u saw how fajran wanted me to do it and teacher was in class so i didn't do it >.<>.< , slept in sch 2day, came back home sleep again and I'll feel tired until I get a good rest after sch 2moro....not gonna add new stuffs like music and videos til later on...2moro...next week....month...year....XD u get the pic, i'll update it when I feel like it....and I'm out.

-E-

The Same Routine Over And Over Again....

2009-04-08T20:54:00.004+08:00

...something I drew in school when I was bored after finishing my work....

.......Just a quick update to say that I updated most things which you should check out....don't really have anything more to say.....other than I hate my life....that's all

-E-

(note: i just realized that linked rasyidi and lionel terbalik....and i can't edit it for some reason...anywayz, at least u know...)

T.K.W.P....

2009-03-29T22:25:00.003+08:00

Zzzz....just wanted to put something about a quiz about how am I which I took recently on facebook XS it's...very true I guess....XD you ppl tell me how true it is and what you think about it....and oh, I'm not gonna reply to any nonsense so, here it is...

-You Are the Kid with Potential-
How you see yourself: You don't really care about school or grades. Rules apply to you, but you don't seem to take them seriously. You are very laid-back and outgoing, so you are easy to like. You can be funny when you want to be, but being serious about things can occasionally be an issue. How others see you: Others see you as the slacker. Whether they know it for a fact or not, they may think of you as the "bad kid" who hangs with the "bad crowd." They generally like you, however, because they wish they could have a stress-free life like you. Who you are: You have the potential to be great. You are very intelligent, but you don't try because you don't see the point or because you have better things to do. You find it difficult to take studying seriously or to work for long periods of time. You don't feel that others have much faith in your abilities, so you laze around because you don't have faith in yourself. You will, however, be a stress-free person, and that will make you happier than most.

Zzzzz....that's all from me now I guess....XD

-E-

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oh, quick note...on my last post at the ending part I accidentally wrote "it's adult stuffs like some of you pervs think it is....", I meant to write 'it isn't'....well, I don't really bother to read what I wrote to make sure everything's correct so...*some parts missing*XS

Part 6: It---

2009-03-20T17:52:00.003+08:00

This pic has an AWESOME artwork!!!! DAMN IT'S NICE!!!!

....Zzzzz......this holiday is B.O.R.I.N.G.!!!!! Omg, practically stayed indoor for more than half the holiday playing GG everyday and just earlier this morning, freaking electricity went off about 9am when I'm still sleeping...wth??? Class dinner, that's another thing! It really just follows the concept of da NAME, CLASS DINNER...and that's all it was! Walaoneh, first went there early due to my nature of not liking to be late for things....so reach there like 6.30 and the thing started at 7...About a dozen ppl were there already and me, I was the ONLY GUY there for like 1 1/2 HOURS!!! OMG, keep hearing ppl talking and talking and talking and all I was thinking about was "pls lah, come la guys, dun ffk me ah!!! If u do, i'll kick ur asses after holidays!!!!" thankfully like 3 of them came, others were god knows where and for the 1 1/2 hours period, the guys serving us seriously probably thought I was gay(F**K!!!) And the other thing was....the reason a 'Class Dinner' was named so is because it's meant for ppl FROM that class!!! Unless ur like coming with ur bf or gf, wtf other reason is there for u to go there?! There were 2 ppl who 'invaded' the "dinner" 1 gurl and 1 guy...wait no, not guy, F.A.G.G.O.T. The gurl I don't mind cause like the ppl in charge of organizing the dinner INVITED her but the guy, that's the thing, he came saying he wanted to get some "groceries" from SUNWAY PYRAMID...yes, SUNWAY PYRAMID....WHO THE HELL goes there to buy "groceries"?!!! Obviously he came just for f**ks!!! And only 1 person invited him and it wasn't the person in charge of organizing the dinner so, WHY THE F**K are YOU there in the first place?!! And when ppl ask him, he answered like a f**ked up pussy saying "uhh...*someone* invited me" and ppl from my class said, "why u come?", "hu u came wif?", "who invited u" and a few were laughing when the ppl asked that question, you know who you are, the ppl who asked those questions~ and thank god the thing ended about like 9pm or something...AFTER THAT, me and a few more ppl wanted to go look around....and so we did...me, syafiq and fajran were at 'Topman' when I saw a couple of sweaters that reminded me that I wanted to buy one...I asked Desh who later went to dunno where with his gf, he said 'Giordano' had some nice ones and so I said that after fajran was done trying on some shirts, we'd go there....Fajran...next time, don't take like 20 min to buy a few shirts....mr.fajran took his own sweet time and finally he bought his shirts....after that, we wanted to go to 'Giordano' so that I can buy a sweater...BUT, something happened....I won't go into further details cause if I do, Fajran might KILL ME....but I will say this, he told me that at that time, he was feeling VERY nervous, the MOST he's ever been so far in his life....and at the end of the night, he was a Happy Man...wait lemme rephrase that, Happy 'Dude'

And that ends the 'Class Dinner' story ark....after that like I said, GG everyday...bored but still GG anyways....pratically wasted 1/2 holidays doing nothing....waiting til after the mid term exam so that I can finally get ready to take my driving lisence!...There's also been arguments this week....to summarize it all up, the entire holiday SO FAR has been nothing but...let's just say, it's been one those bad week you have sometimes in your life....and I guess it ends my post for this time.....and Zzzzz....I don't know if I still wanna keep trying...even though I know it keeps ending up with the same fate thanks to my inability to 1, drive! 2, be able to get "ppl" out of their houses so that I spend some time wif 'em and 3, "ppl" not seeming to want "it"....and it's adult stuffs like some of you pervs think it is....and I'm out....

-E-

Part 5: If---

2009-03-08T18:16:00.005+08:00

This is what everybody doing to me....pulling me...bringing me down everytime I try to get up...

Back again...it's been a while since I last updated my blog, didn't want it to be "dead" again and have another premature burial....haihz......it's like the picture says...everybody keeps on trying and trying to bring me down....everyday of my life there WILL BE always something or someone who makes my day ruined....and it's been happening since "that day"....for those who were in the same class as me in form 1, you know damn well what happened....it's a long time and yet, I still feel hesitated to even think about it let alone talk to people about it....that day mark the day that I became emotionally scarred....as you people would say it, "emo"...and since then I've tried again and again and again to put on a mask that will hide my true emotions....I act like a jerk, be annoying and it's tiring.....I've been doing it up until now....my emotion's been very no, TOO vurnerable since then and everytime someone says something that disturbs me, I then to get emotional....not because I want to...it's because you people made me so....even just today....my best friend, who I'd support any day in my life, he, who anytime I see him, he too will tease, insult me, tearing me apart...my BEST FRIEND....at least he is to me....I doubt I'm his....there's a difference between who ARE your best friend...and who you THINK are your best friends....and right now....I think I might have only 1....and he isn't the person who I think is my best friend....cause my "best friend" keeps insulting me everytime I see him, it's painful...it's enraging and I feel like tearing him apart...something which I shouldn't feel....everytime he insults me, he ALWAYS, CROSS THE LINE...but when I insult him, he gets angry immediately....it justs go to show how anybody can bring you down any time in your life....a lot of you who are my age, especially who were my classmates in form 1 know how I can be torn apart emotionally with a flick of a finger....and for my "best friend" to insult me everytime he sees me? It's like me having a large wound constantly trying to heal...and he keeps throwing salt right on the wound....EVERY SINGLE TIME that I see him, he'll do that....I don't know if I want him to be my best friend anymore....I'm not even sure I wanna be around him anymore....I've heard people say that he's one of the reason I'm holding back in everything I do and that's why the highest I've been in academics...is only 4th...I'm not even 3rd...I've never tasted that luxury before....and I want to....I...just don't know what to do anymore....like I said, my feelings are easily hurt by anyone....I know I can't do anything to people when it comes to words...because it's just words...it's not physical...I have a lot...and I mean A LOT of pent up aggression inside of me...and if the wrong person decides to push the wrong buttons, I WILL UNLEASH A FURY THAT YOU HAVE NEVER EVER SEEN BEFORE....and don't blame me if that person dies....cause I wouldn't mind going to jail if that happens....but if it's possible, I want my emotions to stay emotions and not be the last breath of that unfortunate person....

.....I need someone who would pick me up whenever I fall...I need someone who would sacrifice their body to protect me when I'm being stomped on the ground....I need someone who would always be on my side, right or wrong, I NEED someone who would be able to heal my deep wounds...I NEED someone who'll always be by my side until the day I die...I NEED someone who I'd be crazy about at the start of my day...and still would be at the end of my day....I NEED to find someone who would understand me and not just pass judgment based on what "people" say...I need someone who would make me want to reach my goals in life...I need someone who would be able to handle things when I'm not around...I NEED to find my 'Soulmate'.....and right now...I haven't found her yet....I like someone currently....but I don't know if she likes me back or if she's my soulmate....I....don't know how I'm gonna carry on living each day...if my wounds keep getting deeper and deeper...having no time to heal....I don't know if I can survive like this....before I know it...the end might be sooner than I thought....I might not even live to see the day that I even get a girlfriend or get married or have a family or fullfil my dreams or get my dream job, my dream house, my dream life.....I might not be able to live to see that day....if I keep going in my current condition.....

before I end this post, I'm putting this lyrics of a song that really desrcibes how I feel right now....the title is Falling Apart by Trust Company...for those who feel the same way as me...this's a song that you'd wanna listen to....

Trust Company - Falling Apart

I slipped away further from you,
Trying to find what is real,
You're somebody else that I never knew,
And someone that I can’t feel.....

I shut it away,
I keep it in me,
Is this what it takes to keep me alive?
So you take me and you break me,
And you see I’m falling apart,
Complicate me and forsake me,
You push me out so far,
There’s no more feeling.....

I slipped away closer to me,
The only thing that is real,
I’m falling behind and now I can see,
Your absence helps me heal.....

I shoved you away,
I keep you from me,
Is this what it takes to keep me alive?
So you take me and you break me,
And you see I’m falling apart,
Complicate me and forsake me,
You push me out so far,
There’s no more feeling.....

Spread, Spread out...
Spread, Spread out.....

So you take me and you break me,
And you see I’m falling apart,
Complicate me and forsake me,
You push me out so far....
And you take me and you break me,
And you see I’m falling apart,
There’s no more feeling.....

Part 4 : Do----

2009-02-21T23:32:00.002+08:00

........I think by now I should confirm that I'll be sticking to 13 for my form 5 year.....so that problem aside....I guess it's just life that when one problem's gone, the next one emerges the next second....I know I shouldn't do this but I feel like I just can't sleep at night if I don't....I have a TERRIBLE mother for a parent and right now, I feel like I hate her more than I've ever hate anyone before in my life....but by some divine miracle, I haven't given her the full piece of my mind...though it's just a matter of time before I do....

....As to why I'm saying this is because she has been getting on my nerve for the past 7 months now...it started out small as a normal argument like I wanna buy something but she wouldn't let me....but ever since then, bit by bit I've realizing how her every action has affected me....and the result of it leads to me realizing that she's the one MOST RESPONSIBLE for screwing up MY LIFE, if it wasn't for her bad judgment, I would have crap myself to humiliation which ruin more than 3 years of my life!!! If it wasn't for her, I would've been a totally different and nicer person to make it short....and just because I didn't wanna continue my add maths tuition JUST beacause I JUST wanted to PASS, she twist and turn stories so that everybody will think that I'M the BAD GUY, not her....she has the nerve to tell ppl that I've become a bad son? that MY best friend has been a bad influence on me all these years? and just to add insult to injury, I was in the top 3 classes my whole primary year??? the last one my not make sense to a lot of you but all those things are nothing but a bunch of BULLSHIT!!!!!they're LIES LIES LIES LIES created by MY MOTHER just because she didn't like the way I've been treating her for months!!!!

.....I have been treating her worse than the rest of my family because I wanted to prove a point. What kind of mother just LAUGH at her son when her son's crying or whenever he's being serious??!!! Since young I was pratically "caged" in my house and I couldn't go out until I was 11....WTF'S WITH THAT???!!!!!! And jus so you ppl know, a lot of ppl DON'T LIKE HER because she keeps meddling with ppl's affairs, in other words, she's being VERY KIA SU with things ppl don't want her to!!! And she practically gives the worse advises EVER!!! Every time I follow what she says, it has NEVER EVER benefited my whatsoever, instead, it made my life worse! Another thing that pisses me off is that she can even tell ppl that I have NO FRIENDS and she DOESN'T KNOW WHY THINGS ARE BAD IN SCHOOL for me!!!! WHAT THE HELL KIND OF MOTHER IS THAT???!!!!!!! she doesn't even know me anymore and when she do know even 0.01% of it, she jumps into conclusion about my life and she makes it seems that she's ALWAYS RIGHT....she is one of THE MOST SELF-RIGHTEOUS PERSON I HAVE EVER MET in my whole life, every other asshole I've met in my life couldn't even hold a candle to her in terms of being one of the most self-righteous, self-centered, controlling and whenever I try to defend myself, she can mouth off to me and say, "I'm your mother, I have the right say so/do so" it may not be 100% correct but I can damn sure guarantee that it is at least 90% on the mark....

.....she's the kind of person who thinks she knows best, that she's always right! she doesn't listen to ppl, even if she did, it's like it goes in one ear and goes out the next, she's is one of THE MOST UN-UNDERSTANDING PARENT no, PERSON I've EVER MET!!!! I mean whenever something's wrong she keeps thinking she's right and that EVERYONE should listen to her otherwise they're not gonna be able to continue their life properly, that's how she acts....and when she knows she can't do something, she always ask someone else to do it for her, always asking "someone" to listen and she'll be the puppet-master from the shadows....like i said, she's a control freak...the only thing that's keeping me going, is the fact that one day I'm gonna leave this house....and I'm NEVER coming back!!! Just to make it sweeter, she was sick last year and had to go to the hospital, she had to stay there for a few days, originally I didn't wanted to go because I knew what was gonna happen....and I'm still human so I went there trying my best to keep my anger locked away....but when I reached there, the FIRST THING that she did when she see me is try to PISS ME OFF!!! It just goes to show the extent of how much she wants me to be constantly angry...I've been trying so long to change my life around, to to control my anger, to be able to smile without it being fake but SHE, SHE had to insert herself and mess with MY LIFE, I had made plans, plans to make my life better, even when I was a kid....but because of her, I had to throw it all away and be stuck with the misarable state that I'm in right now......and SHE even dares to compare me to other ppl's children saying, "Why other's people can, why you cannot?" or "Other people's children know when to do things without them telling" and there's more where that came from...but I really remember them all.....and there's one thing, some things ppl don't know how to do....so how the hell are they suppose to do it if they don't even know how?! Right now I am filled with anger just by thinking about her, much less having to live with her....it's painful.....but I'm making new plans to build back my life which have been crush by the very person who gave it to me in the first place....and I need all the help I can get....now, this may seem like I'm a terrible trrible son....but I have no other options left....I'm gonna alienate her from my life as much as possible...I don't want her to have ANYTHING to do with my life.....then maybe this crushed soul can live once again.....just maybe.....but I don't plan on just making it a 'maybe'......I want my life back and dammit I've been in hell for far too long! I'll run, I'll walk, I'll crawl my way through if I have to so that I can get my life, my will, my resolve back without being controlled by the puppet-master anymore.....I have very few people to help me do so....but I can't just rely on them, even so, I still need they're help so that I can finally be free.....just so I can be free to live out my life the way I WANT TO...not the way that others want me to.......

-E-

Part 3 : You-----

2009-02-09T00:21:00.004+08:00

Back again...and I've been meaning to say this but I have a cousin that kinda resembles this person in the picture for a while now....She doesn't look exactly 100% same but whenever I see her, she definately reminds me of my couz. So...this week when to cc not once but twice, started play dotA again and feeling really sienz cause I've just finished playing about like 3 games and all are long about at least 1 hour each.....so I thought I'd update my blog for a change...aside from dat, 2day's a holiday, get to sleep late, wake up late and my back is somehow killing me right now XD
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..........oh yeah, my class is apparently doing something like a (summary???) of how's the life of each ppl in 4f and 5f....ppl's been busy trying to write something they'd remember and not regretting that they wrote it...I've been working on mine myself, it's about 90% complete, I'll finish the rest on tuesday in sch cause I am just way way too lazy right now....feeling sleepy but not feeling sleepy and dat's about it I guess......

-E-
"I hear voices crying....."

The Main Event....

2009-01-30T17:50:00.004+08:00

Hey, quick update ppl and I just have one thing to say......R.K.O. IS GOING TOOOOO WRESTLEMANIAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Part 2 : Would----

2009-01-17T21:34:00.003+08:00

Back for another day to write boring stuffs that ppl wouldn't want to read XD. If you're wondering what's the deal with the poster, it's a new John Cena movie coming out some time around March....it won't be in M'sia though cause it's still backwatered compared to other countries....Anyway, urm...currently sick(ugh...)not good, feel like crap, head feels heavy, can't barely speak, sneeze like blowing out a birthday cake for the past few hours and now writing this down for reasons I myself do not know why......let's see...what's more.......watch some spongebob special thing that i downloaded.....for like 5 times now(damn! I'm lifeless!)hmm.....what else is there...?
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oh yeah, been working lil' bit on the name weapons thingy...okay, name weapons is just bogus, i'll just say my game, it'd be easier....as I was saying, been working a lil' bit in here and there and let's just say it's getting better bit by bit each day(schooling day that is)............
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well, I just saw a few pics of a gurl I liked about an hour ago....she's happy....and that's good.....Also, "She"(a diff person), seems to be "watching" some guy to see if he's her "potential" bf...this's what I think but I'm not sure myself...anyway, they seem to be happy....well, at least "she" knows how to find a way to be...."she"s happy, my previous crush's happy, everyone's happy....what about me...????Me??? hmph....I'm just not cut out to be happy.........I'm sick, I'm lifeless, what else more do you want me to add? Short? Skiny? Stupid? Useless? Emo? Irritatting? You name it, I'm whatever you say....but just to make this clear, I'm not queer. So far, this year's been like last year to me, not kind...but the only thing that keeps me going is to reach my "Sanctuary" one day...but now....even it seems to be turning into another hell hole before I even reached there, waiting to lure me in and throw me into the endless, bottomless pit of suffering......I don't know if I wanna go there if all that awaits me there is more pain, more suffering, more agony....I don't want that anymore....I don't want to feel anymore pain, physical pain I can still handle...but mental....if I do, I'll break....I'll break and end my life before anyone realize it.....I don't know whether to stay or to go...because it seems like anywhere I go, there's just more bad things waiting for me.....and everyday I try so hard just to get by, to put a fake smile, I wear a mask that hides my pain, everyone does but mine can shatter to pieces at any moment.......I need to find peace in my life, I really do....so here's my request to anyone who's reading this, to all my friends, family, enemies, fellow readers, help me find peace back in my life, leave me be, don't torture me anymore, help me find the peace in my life I lost so long ago...and in return, I swear to repay you with kindness, it's not much, it may be hard for me to do but it's the only thing I have left that I'll do my best to deliver...just like the song 'Savin' Me' by Nickelback, if you think it is worth saving me, help me do this small favour that I request.......to all that have spend time to read the thoughts of this broken soul, I appreciate you spending time to read....and with this, I end my post for now........

Part 1: What---

2009-01-10T19:56:00.003+08:00

It's...been a long time since I last updated this "dead" blog...to others it may seem like little but to me, there's been quite an amount of things that happen...first off, it's 2009 and 10 days late to wish any of you people happy new year so, I won't bother on that...For the last 2 months of '08 was kinda boring, watch 'Twilight's the only I've done that did not make me feel pathetic...other than that it's new year's eve...kinda fun to have people around for a change....overall, I'll just say that '08 is a B*tch(mind my language). As for '09...I started first day of school MUCH differently than the previous years...got caught 'cause my hair was "long", after that had near 4 hours of grueling tuition...Second day was better!!!(being so sacarstic) We had to listen to about 1 1/2-2 hours worth of words which most students just see it as 'useless facts'...and every day after school I'll just sleep til' I'm satisfied because it's been tiring so far...other than this are....well, there's a new girl in my class, my classroom sux, I hate waking up so damn early, got the school yearbook....that's all I can think right now to summarize up these few months....can't really remember other things....
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...Well...."she" sure seems to be doing fine....but I'm starting to wonder if I should really go.....and whenever I do...school here seems nice....as though I don't wanna leave....eventhough...I know I'm not needed nor wanted here....there's people waiting for me in my "Sanctuary" but.....ARGH!!!! I hate how I feel now! It's like when you die, you can choose to stay as a wandering spirit or go to "the other side"....and right now, I feel like a wandering spirit, I'm not needed, I'm not wanted yet I feel like staying eventhough I don't want to....I guess....I'm still staying to search for a reason to stay....not reasons given to me, reasons for me to stay....and right now...I don't have that....if I have a reason to stay, I might....but now, nobody hasn't really given me one.....I....I....feel like I have to go...it's the only way for me not keep drowning in my "Sea of Self-Obligation"....
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2008-11-14T20:24:00.003+08:00

Yeah, i know my blog's been urm..."dead" for like more than a month now so....just wanted to say dat I won't be updating it for like til' end of dis year or maybe next year cause I'm too damn lazy and I'm just living my life unlike some ppl so....that's it I guess....

-E-

The Aftershock

2008-10-26T21:27:00.009+08:00

It's after exam, things have been but still could be better, finish series 1 which the sketches will be released expect for faj's cause i forgot to take the pic and he din bring the pic to sch -.-", i'm pretty satisfied with the results and i hope to those who's opinion i actually care about, i hope u'll like it ^^ The pics are below so for now, that aside, friday, after the exam, as usual went to tuition, a few ppl din't show up, normal day. As for yesterday, went for tuition AGAIN...surroundings got a lil' emo for a while...then went to summit. Go there, eat lunch, buy cards XD (i got the cards that i wanted, YES!!! XD, childish lil' *censored*), watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3!!!!! IT IS THE BEST MOVIE EVER.....NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG, first 5 min, gay song, next 5, gay talk, then gay song, then gay talk and again and again and again, the only reason i din get the f*** out of there is because i din't want to waste my 9 bucks! After dat, called my bro to come and pick me up, but didn't cause he was TOO DAMN LAZY, after dat put Prison Break Season 4 into psp, went to ben's house, transferred it into his com(nice family and house btw), watch Never Back Down(it was awesome!!! can u say MUAI THAI?!(if i spelling sux, deal with it!)), watch a lil' bit of M.U. vs Everton( omg it was a freaking draw!!! wth?!), ate dinner with ben and best bud' oh ya...b4 i forget, this day i actually played dotA AGAIN(wth), it just reminded me of how sux it is!!! i can't believe ppl actually still play this, if the graphics are like WOW type, then i wouldn't mind but this, this has been the same for YEARS!!! i tell this to ppl and u know what they say? "got new heroes what", "new items mah", "map change edi" am I suppose to be impressed by THAT? pls, Blizzard, make it so dat WOW is afordable, so that some ppl can actually use the creative mind(i'm sure there are ppl like dat) to create dotA WOW style, better than this pathetic thing now dat u call a game, this is my opinion, whether it matters or not, it's up to YOU not ME. So dun come complaining about this idiotic thing to me! thank GOD i quit playing it!!! Back to after the movie, ben and eric arm wrestle like a few times, both win 1 or 2 after dat, ben's sis offered to send me and eric back, eric called his mom about it, about 30 min later, ben's dad instead came and send us back, he's pretty cool, like eric's (r.i.p.), reached eric's house, transferred the Prison Break eps to his com too then hang around for a while, my bro came back to pick me up, went back home and finally after my bro lectured for about 1 hour, i get to watch Eurotrip, man, it is funny!!! XD watch the part especially the fight with Robotman XD, after tat went to bed...As for today, for lunch ate McD(damn! no more shaker fries!!! XD), for dinner had KFC(X-MEAL~~~) and now typing random stuff and dat's it i guess for the days after exam, one more thing, dunno whether if this really happened, eric's mom asked him to study SIVIKS(W.T.H.???) I was like, "Whua?" and ben's like, "Huh?" Man, his mom really cares about studies to aske eric to study for siviks*swt* Anyhuu.... here's the pics for Series 1!!! The title of the series? I think onli a few ppl know but i ain't telling now so, keep ur fingers crossed...

First off, i think it's been seen already a lot, mine, Mark of the Shield, original outfit suppose to look like Andrew's but i found a diff inspiration to be original ^^ I'm okay with the sketch...i guess.....XD

Next, Syafiqzz, Mark of the Bow, couldn't change the drawing from other sketches cause...there's just nth to change, it was good the way it was ^^He's an average happy customer when i gave it to him i guess? He liked it though....or at least i think so...

Synyster Desh's, Mark of the Sword, the sword's pattern took a while but it turned out okay i think...was orginally looked slightly diff except dat Desh actually asked be to draw demon wings...-.-" i told him it's look like Devil Jin from Tekken but it wasn't "him" Overall, he seem happy with the results...

Mark of the Claw, Andrew's, this looks like a total different Andrew XD When i handed it to him, he was like had the don't care attitude, kinda pissed me off a lil' but u know, dat's him, Mr.APCS....lol XD

Wilfred's Mark of the Rapier, he was suppose to be like a cyborg type char but i just couldn't think of how to draw a machine type body....I SUX!!!XD He looked pretty surprised though when he saw this...just wished dat i knew how to the machine type body....it would've been cool....

Lastly, the last addition the the first series, my best bud's, Mark of the Blade...i know some of might think isn't sword and blade the same? Well, for this case it's diff...cause this mark's giant sword can be detached into 2, a katana and a sword gauntlet ^^ so, it's pretty unique~i din give him his sketch so, i dun really know wat his thinks of this...XD

Well...i guess this is it for now, til next time whenever dat may be...

-E-

The Failure

2008-10-15T20:23:00.004+08:00

Well...just as it says, The Failure...as some of u noe, i did not study a DAMN THING for this exam unless u consider tuition studying...the exams so far hasn't really been kind and i've been uhh..."occupied" during the examinations...oh yeah...The Name Weapons...been a while...well, there's been A LOT of progress since the first update. I've made the second series, drew the characters for the first series....finished the sketches for 4/7 characters....mine, "Mark of the Shield"(Paladin), my best bud's, "Mark of the Blade"(Crusader *the last addition to the first series*), Syafiqz, "Mark of the Bow"(Hunter) and Fajran's "Mark of the Scythe"(Reaper)....well...i've released the sketch for Faj's one....i wanna lend it for a moment so i can take a pic of it for my future post...so 4/7 down, 3 more to go...Yudesh's one, "Mark of the Sword"(Fighter) is urm...80% done??? i just have to draw the tattoos for both arms and the sword and i'm done...and that leaves Wilfred's and Andrew's one left...haihz...i dun know if i can finish it by the time exam's are finished....there's about a week more left til it's over then HOLIDAY!!! XD so many things to do, so lil' time...other than the sketches, there's a lot more things to do...if this doesn't get into the game business...hopefully it'll at least become a manga or comic...consider this one of dreams....Well...that's it for now i guess....btw, updated playlist!XD

-E-

someday....

The F**cked Up

2008-10-03T01:25:00.004+08:00

Oh man, i am so dead! Exam next week and i din do a damn thing! XD Instead, i play game...of all games, Digimon World 2!!! XD Man, am i lame, lol. I..I...I'm just speechless....all i know, i'm gonna fail and i'm just gonna laugh about it when other ppl will scold me, talk trash, gossip (for those ppl with absolutely no LIFE) Haihz....well...what else is there??? Urm...suppose to go out yesterday(wed) but was cancelled...my best bud' is on vaca when i'm just sitting at home f'ing up my life XD, oh yeah, watched Halloween(2007 the remake of the ori movie) it was urm...better than the original, dats for sure...wat else is there??? *thinks for a moment* hmm...watch a couple of movies, had a few bad meals, drank too much of 100 plus...oh yeah, nearly NOBODY replied any of my messages(wth?! i know u all are studying but at least reply "i'm busy" or sumthing) haihz...have tuition l8er in the evening....No Mercy ppv is on the first day of exam!!! Valhalla Knights 2 the eng edition is out....but not in m'sia YET...oh yeah, second last thing...i had a dream that seriously could happen in real life as in i can actually picture the event happen in reality...was pretty funny...omg, i really have to stop sleeping so damn much, i even have concioussness(is this spelled correctly?) when i sleep now! XD It just reminded me of the poem If that i learn in school...the line which says "...never make dreams your master..." it-.....i just lost thought of what i wanted to say, lol...Well, i was suppose to type one more thing but like just know, i just lost thought of wat i was suppose to type XD ( i sux!) Anyway, dats all for now i guess....

-E-

The Name Weapons

2008-09-16T20:04:00.011+08:00

Been a while, just wanted to post things i've kinda been doing in school when i'm bored...As the title says, "Name Weapons". It first started wif me wanting to like a grafitti pendants for my own name, slowly it eventually lead to this...whether u ppl like it or not is ur own problem, not mine...here're the pics, enjoy...

1. First off, Fajran's name (Scythe) it's pretty big

2. Andrew (Claw) u know like those assassin's weapon???

3. Wilfred (Rapier) the upper part is like a gauntlet so, it's kinda hand-connected

4. Yudesh (Sword) the most "smart" wan out of all the six

5. Syafiq (Bow) wish could make it more interesting...haha

6. your's truly, Eugene (Shield) it was originally smaller and look like a different weapon...

i know this seems kinda childish but wat to do? I'm bored...XD. If anyone wants me to sketch one out for them then send me a comment on friendster...IF u ppl want me too...I dun take complaints...til' next time

-E-

Damness...

2008-09-07T23:12:00.003+08:00

BAM!!! Bet u guys din see the botak-ness coming!!! XD

Been a while since i updated my blog, just finishing going through a few of my friend's that's why i decided to update...As most of u know....in sch, i am offically known as "botak", "sami" and "avatar" XD. Eventhough ppl call me names, i'm quite fine wif that, in fact it's pretty funny cause when i look at the mirror, i myself can resist laughing XD...well...other than by other ppl, Yudesh's teasing by far is the most annoying, the moment he sees me, the first thing he does is LAUGH and laugh and laugh...thinking of it also kinda makes me laugh...lol. Btw, nice urm..."haircut" dude, haha. Ever since i cut hair, i feel kinda more open-minded to teasing, insults and so-on, it's a good thing for me and for others, y? cause they got something to laugh about every morning in sch til' my hair grows to at least an average length...anyway, enough of me yapping on on about me and my hair(bet if u guys hear me talking this sh*t out, u guys would probably say, "wat hair? u got hair???" or sumthing like dat) Unforgiven ppv is 2moro, too bad can't skip sch to watch it(DAMN!!!) sayang to miss the first ever championship scramble match, the rules kind sux abit though...enough of that for now...Exams coming in 2 weeks and newsflash, i haven't start A DAMN THING!!! XD. For some reason, i can't study, these passed few weeks have been....i have no idea wats the word i'm looking for XD, anyway, for the holidays, went to genting, din go to themepark, went shopping instead, last week, heard some things dat changed my opinions about some people(it's always the one u'd never expect huh?), helped "riss" take a photo for moral stuff, been called nicknames over and over again, being bored in sch, puasa started andi just lost thought of wat i wanted to write*blur* XD. To summarize it, it' been a long 2 weeks...Man, i have no idea wat to write right now, haha...have to go sleep soon...but currently watching movie, 'Friday the 13th : Jason Goes To Hell"(it's like my friend said, it sux) guess i'd be signing off now, btw, i wanna change the looks of my profile, anybody got an idea or even give a sh*t, come tell me, k? til' next time

-E- a.k.a. "Avatar"

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2008-08-24T21:10:00.004+08:00

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Tonight....

2008-08-23T20:25:00.006+08:00

Tonight'>http://www.imeem.com/jonacristine/music/BF7kxMpE/fm_static_tonight/">Tonight - FM Static

hey ppl....i think...i finally know what to blog about....i'm gonna blog about things which i feel strongly about(sorry couldn't put it in better words...). Which brings us to my topic for the day...The song Tonight by FM Static has been out for 2 years now and it's a nice song....however whenever i ask majority for the ppl whether they've heard for the song, they usually say "no". It's a real pity....i've put the link so that ppl could listen to it, i hope that after this, more ppl will know this song and maybe it'll be heard by all....Here's the lyrics for the song....

-FM Static - Tonight-

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight
I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight
I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you SAT AND told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...
I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight
I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

i hope that you all will like the song as i did....

-E-

The Pursuit of Happyness

2008-08-19T21:42:00.007+08:00

hey ppl, i know i said that til' i find something to keep blogging about for along time, i'd put a hold to blogging, but i just had to blog about this...this movie, The Pursuit of Happyness, acted by Will Smith and his son as you can see in the pic. This story was inspired by a true story and a touching one...to me. It's about a man named Chris Gardner and the struggles he go through in his life during the 19-80's. It a very good movie and I would recommend all who hasn't or have watch it to watch it again because it really makes you think about your life and what will happen, what you want to happen, what can happen and it makes you feel like you can be a better person just watching the movie, needless to say this movie can be a big influence to one that really understand the storyline of this movie.

Next, is Ben 10 : Alien Force. Eventhough i'm old enough to NOT watch this show, i still do. Why? 'Cause it's a pretty addictive show to watch. In this series, Ben, the small kid from the original series, Ben 10, is 5 years older now and it's been 5 years since he last wear that watch thing on his wrist. He now has new urm..."aliens" to turn into and somehow can't turn into the old ones. The old ones however, do appear in the series but not really to Ben's advantage in the beginning. I've watch the first 12 episodes so far, haven't watch the 13th which is the ending of season 1, suppossingly to be nice. To wrap this up, I say that if kids loved the old series, they're gonna love this one and one advice to teenagers and adults, try to restrain yourselves from watching to much of it 'cause like i said, it's addictive.

and this concludes my post for the time, i'll blog again when i do.

-E-

The Decision

2008-08-16T23:28:00.003+08:00

Man has it been too DAMN LONG since I've updated this! It's been what, 2 weeks??? *sigh* Haven't been updating this cause I...don't really know what to write....I don't want this to be some retarded blog that some p*ssy writes all the bad things that happens to him and complain and complain like a f*cking p*ssy, screw that man! Well, it's the start of the august sch holidays...got some plans, gonna do some of them and srew the rest, lol. F*ck this man! I'm gonna find one passion to blog about and until I find that, I won't be updating this blog...and I won't put the titles of my posts as "Day __" anymore, screw that man, I'll put real titles from now on, *sigh* signing off ppl...

-E-

Day 14

2008-07-25T21:17:00.026+08:00

Day 14, been a while since I updated my blog, been lazy~~~ =P anywayz, just wanted to get this over with by posting pics I took from 7 days ago til today.

Vincent

Stanley

Quiin Yi

Pui Kuan

Tsi Minn a.k.a. Mickey Minn

Wei Ling

Rahul with old hairstyle

Chang Soon

Fajran

Yusof

Syafiqs

Chien Yee a.k.a. Ah Fei

Tasha

Yudesh a.k.a. Synyster Desh

Balan

Syafiqs and Chang Soon

andrew a.k.a. Andrew Vangence

lionel a.k.a. black spiderman (even heroes needs rest)

some muscle action 0.o

some gay action -.-" and if you look at the upper left corner you'll see some sesat action XD

Rahul with new hairstyle (really suits him better)

and lastly, mr moraish

well, that's all for now....gonna update when I get more pics, signing off....ahh! screw the f**k f**k thing, it' wasting my time and energy, til next time.

Day 13

2008-07-17T18:09:00.034+08:00

Hey, I know it's been a while since I had a post and so, I'm back! Cancel the chatbox by "popular demand" so, no one will be able to comment anymore...Ok, here's what happen, today brought phone to school for the first time this year and took LOTS of pictures, enjoy!

yudesh vs andrew...and the winner is...Yudesh!!!

wilfreds smiling(the wise sami XD)

wilfreds and syafiqs

L.E.S.???

ka yuen(tiffany), nicole and xin yin(elizabeth XD)

fajran jonas~~~ haha

syafiq posing emo...

a random pic of ppl moving around...

phang ching siang teaching how to eat twiggles...in one bite!!! XD

and that's y u dun eat and laugh at the same time, if onli he din cover his mouth XD

fajran starts showing off his muscle 0.o hahaha

and if u look into fajran's hand u'll see yudesh amazed! XD

wats he doing to poor andrew?! 0.o

andrew after being harassed by fajran XD

me and syafiqs

fajran, yudesh, andrew and abit of wilfred's head XD haha

the gang of 5...future boyband??? XD

lionel aka the black spiderman! even heroes can be black!XD

blurcases yusof, vincent and quin yi

phantom of the kenny! XD

posing doh!

wats kenny doing to the poor fella? 0.o

two rajin ppl from 4a

all pics of them were actually damn random XD

another random pic

y so shy??? hahaha

Kenny upgraded becoming...KennyX!!

shying again~~~

suraya and kenny in mask

superheroes???

kids being who they are~~~

mr.thiru and andrew

Mr.Thiru ^^(he was cool about me bring phone to sch)

and lastly, fajran and mr.thiru comparing height

Day 12

2008-07-11T23:58:00.002+08:00

Day 12, F**K IT!!!! I don't have any F**KING mood to write anything!!!! F**K!!!! SCREW THIS F**KING WORLD!!!! From now on, I will NEVER trust anyone EVER AGAIN until people actually LIVE UP TO THEIR WORD....This will be my last post for now, I won't update it for a while...and during ESPECIALLY this few days, you people better not F**K WITH ME, cause if you guys do, I SWEAR TO GOD, I WILL BEAT THE LIVING HELL OUT OF ANYONE, NO ONE is SAFE, GET IT??? male, female, adults, animals, ANYTHING that tries to F**K WITH ME, I WILL KNOCK YOUR LIGHTS OUT AND MAKE SURE YOU DON"T LIVE TO SEE ANOTHER DAY AGAIN, I'm really serious here, ANYONE even tries to screw around even a LITTLE BIT, I WILL KNOCK THEIR LIGHTS OUT, that's all, off and out.

Day 11

2008-07-10T21:15:00.002+08:00

Day 11, no pictures this time...just wanted to do something only since I'm BORED...new update on the chatbox, FINALLY, SOMEONE HAS 1/100 THE BALLS to write their REAL NAME, and that's good~at least there'd be ONE less BALLESS FREAK in this world...btw, I'll be signing off differently from now on, making it umm...how should I put it, simple. Today, when to school, usual thing in school but this time, I saw yudesh and the gang(no, not Chain Gang) played batu seremban...only thing is, they played the bottle cap game thing with batu seremban(~.^) kesian yudesh, always second, fajran was first(haha), wilfred third and andrew(turtle~) was last...*swt* other than this, I'm proud to say I ain't going to the bm tuition that I went last week(THANK YOU GOD), my mom cook chicken with teriyaki sauce(mmm~~~but the sauce was kinda gooie), watch 'friends' and here I am...that's about it I guess....oh wait, a lil' shoutout to one of my friend if she reads my blog, "don't worry, you don't scare guys away, they're just shy to talk to you, that's all ^^" signing off(here comes the BIG one), F**K YOU RASYIDI & AIZUDDIN, F**K YOU TWO, GO TO HELL, STAY IN HELL!!!!!!!!!!

Day 10

2008-07-09T19:51:00.002+08:00

Day 10, it amazes me that ppl still don't understand 3 LANGUAGES, IF YOU DON'T LIKE MY BLOG, GET THE F*CK OUTTA HERE!!! YOU AIN"T WELCOME, NOBODY ASKED YOU TO READ and LOOK IN THE MIRROR TO SEE A SOHAI WAITING THERE, you bunch of RETARDS!!!!! "sohai, talk so much" WHO IN THE HELL ARE YOU?!!! I DON"T WELCOME PUSSIES to my blog who doesn't even DARE to write their you know....REAL NAME?!!!(ring any bell?!!) Once you "guests" have the balls to at least write your REAL NAME, I'll at least welcome you to come argue with me, otherwise...GET THE HELL OUT, YOU BUNCH OF PUSSIES!!!!! Hopefully, "ppl" MIGHT understand what I'm writing, if not, I can lmao all day thinking how RETARDED these "ppl" are...that aside, today had some pameran in sch about study courses after spm...damn wei! By the time my class went there, half of the freaking thing was already gone!!! Damn sayang didn't see Monash U.'s one....other than the pameran...usual stuffs again, go tuition, come back home, here I am, and there I go...that's all to report, in life, there are winners~~~and there are LOSERS(you guys know who the hell you are) signing off, -F*CK YOU RASYIDI & AIZUDDIN _l_ -.- _l_-, may the two of you ROT IN HELL AND STAY THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!-

Day 9

2008-07-09T19:45:00.003+08:00

Day 9 ppl! today did usual stuffs and watch RAW like I always do, there was some funny moment on RAW today...one, is when Batista said to JBL, "cut me off one more time and the only thing you'll be seeing is my fist at your face!!!" another one more is when Cena and Cryme Tyme vandalized JBL's limo, that was funny too...haihz....I starting to wonder why I started to blog...guess time will tell, til' then, in life, there are winners~~~and there are LOSER : rasyidi & gay partner aizuddin (you can't seperate these two cause they're "stuck" to each other....*yuck!*they make me sick)signing off, -F*CK YOU RASYIDI & AIZUDDIN _l_ -.- _l_-, may the two of you ROT IN HELL AND STAY THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!-

Day 8

2008-07-07T23:06:00.003+08:00

Day 8...quite a tiring day i guess...but fun begins after sch, the freaking 'gun' i got yesterday broke the next freaking day(WTF?!) it lasted only one freaking day!!! F*CK IT!!! aside that, tuition got canceled cause teacher got her 'period'(girls thing...) Since there's no tuition and there's plenty of free time, me, my best bud' and another friend(u're starting to gain my respect *salute*) went and help me get new 'guns' cause mine broke, in the end, bought a machinegun and a hangun...After that, went to near usj3(forgot what's the name of the place =P) and had a 'war' with some other friends, it was nice, tiring and fun...after that, had dinner wif my two friends and my best bud's bro...I become vegetarian for that time(wasn't all that bad), some of the dish was actually good, after that went back to collect my things, came back home and here I am doing this...that's all for now...signing off, -F*CK YOU RASYIDI & AIZUDDIN _l_ -.- _l_-, may the two of you ROT IN HELL AND STAY THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!-

Day 7

2008-07-07T23:03:00.003+08:00

7...was boring...hell, this weekend was practically boring....just went out for a while and got my first 'gun'(no, it isn't a freaking penis) stupid gun was jus cool looking, function wasn't really that good....*sigh* i guess weekends will be reported as boring....for a while i guess...we'll see~~~signing off, -F*CK YOU RASYIDI & AIZUDDIN _l_ -.- _l_-, may the two of you ROT IN HELL AND STAY THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!-

Day 6

2008-07-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

Day 6, still going....so, today went to watch hancock, was quite okay, missed important parts cause I had to puke...dodol, wafel and lychee drink never go well in my stomach(F*CK!) After hancock, went to friend's house for a while then went back home....after arriving, it's plain and simple, boring...signing off, -F*CK YOU RASYIDI & AIZUDDIN _l_ -.- _l_-, may the two of you ROT IN HELL AND STAY THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!-

Day 5

2008-07-04T20:31:00.002+08:00

Here's the pic of the Titanium Man action figure that I promised earlier, I personally think it's cool...*clears throat* Day 5, I realized something today about the 2 gay asses rasyidi and aizuddin, that without one another, they're NOTHING!!! I can see it in their useless tiny little eyes just how useful they are without the other...frankly, I don't feel sorry for them and I don't pity, I mean, what's the point of feeling sorry for any of these kind of people EVER? They're like chuck & larry, onli difference is, they ain't funny, they ain't useful, they're NOTHING anyway...enough of these clowns for now. Aside the two asses, went to tuition today, got a bit pissed off...but, the real deal starts after that, after that, i went and get something that'll bring me one step closer to the end of me.....if u've follow my blog so far, you might have a hint of what I'm talking about...Other than this...oh yeah, before I forget, apparently SOME PEOPLE just don't understand english when I say that the haters can go F*CK themselves and get the BLOODY HELL out of my blog!!! And because of that, I'll put it in in their native tongue, just so that they can UNDERSTAND, might use different words though, first, their native tongue, bm. *cleas throat* kepada para pembenci, PERGI PUKI DIRI SENDIRI KAMU DAN BERAMBUS DARI 'BLOG' AKU, PUKIMAK KAU!!! and now, an added bonus, chinese!, it'll be short and sweet, HAM KAH CHAN!!!! there, if SOME PEOPLE STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND, then I guess I'll just have to beat it into their head went the time comes, as for the gay couple, R & A(it's much simpler the ra'shit'di and ai'shit'din), you two can both stop ur "cirit!' and "kamu tahu chain gang?" and "john cena! john cena!", cause it WILL NEVER work on me! I'm a proud John Cena fan, proud Chain Gang member and there's NOTHING that YOU TWO IDIOTS could possibly do that will change MY MIND. From now on, I will aslo stop using "-The Admin-" cause of 'R & A'...instead I'll dedicate each signing off for the next at least 45 more post by using this, -F*CK YOU RASYIDI & AIZUDDIN _l_ -.- _l_-, may the two of you ROT IN HELL AND STAY THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 4

2008-07-04T14:30:00.004+08:00

Welcome back for the forth day! For today, there's nothing to report for sch. Other than that, I'll just list it down for you guys...

1.wake up
2.eat campbell soup
3.watch tv
4.go for bm tuition(my first and last time, my god, couldn't understand a damn thing man!)
5.got a 'Titanium Man' action figure(from Ironman the movie game, it looks damn cool, k?)

and that's mainly all about it for this day...I'll upload the pic of the titantium man action figure later, I'll post it in Day 5.

Day 3

2008-07-02T20:52:00.003+08:00

Hey people, I'm back for the third day! Just wanna say that in my blog, I won't talk much my sch cause my life in sch SUCKS, I still can't believe I've put up with this crap for the 4th year now...there's been times where I feel like I was gonna do something ppl were gonna regret, but...I've manage to keep my cool all this years...There's hasn't been many good memories in the sch I'm in now...I'll admit it. In form 1, i shat my pants(that's right...I'm not proud of it but at the very least I'm man enough to admit it), form 2, someone I wanted to be with left for another country(I bet a lot of ppl know who this is...I only regret not making a good impression towards her and not having the balls to make a move...) and also, this was the first year I had counseling..., form 3, I nearly beat someone up and had another counseling session...form 4 and current, I have to deal with 2, forever in my mind WILL be SONS OF BITCHES, my class assistants monitor, rashyidi and his his GAY PARTNER, aizuddin...other than that..., there's some 'black ass' who likes to say " woh woh woh" everytime he sees me...haven't heard it this few days though, wonder how long that's gonna last...also, I'd like to apologize to ppl I've been a pain in the ass towards this year....I'm sorry chien yee(ah fei), nicole, ee vien, sera, vincent, quin yi, pui kuan and a lot more other ppl...sorry...I bet you guys aren't wondering why I'm writing all this but I'll just lay it out, today in sch, the feeling that I wrote earlier about beating someone up came back to haunt me again today but...it was worse...I actually felt like I wanted to murder people today...it's hard to live through life after being in my shoes for these past 4 years...it's been very hard for me...have no good memories in this sch, no girl, no TRUE FRIENDS, no good results for PMR, heck, I don't even know if I can even pass SPM!!! All I know right now is that I'm feeling a lil' bit better after typing all this down...I just hope I can make it through until after form 5 by keeping my cool like I've did all this while...whew...that was a lot....well, I guess Day was mainly me being all cheezy, judge me if you want but just keep it to yourself, kay? I'm off...

-The Admin-

Day 2

2008-07-01T19:58:00.002+08:00

Second day ppl! Yeah! Man, after a day in sch, it's good to be back home and get some rest. To begin...CM Punk IS THE NEW WORLD HEAVYWEIGHT CHAMPION!!!!!(WTH)Finally, someone took that championship away from that idiot Edge(wrestlers in the ring and outside the real world are totally different ppl,it's like what a friend told me," don't judge a book by it's cover" but I hate Edge only in the ring) and good news is...RAW HAS A WORLD CHAMPION!!! and it's back to the original titles too...OOO it's feels good to know that they didn't have to make another world championship~~~CM Punk was DAMN smart, after Edge got whooped by Batista for costing him the title, he cashed in his MITB(Money In The Bank)contract which allowed him to have a championship match ANYTIME, ANYWHERE, ANY MATCH. So, he cashed it in on a worn-out Edge, GTS(his finisher, Go To Sleep) and there you have it, new....World Heavyweight Champion!!! Other than this, for sch, we have a new english teacher!!!(WTH) Apparently she's a training teacher so she took over my before-this english teacher, Mr.Thiru(Come back!!! I don't wanna new teacher). The thing about the new english teacher is(this is what my bm teacher told the class), she cried after she left the classroom(WTH)before that, she was like all smiling and stuff then she cries?! Everybody was like "Huh?! What the...?!" I'm not acussing anyone but that right there sounds like a freaking hypocrite if you ask me...but this isn't comfirm yet, so I'll hold on to this for a while...well, that's pretty much my day for btw is the beginning of July, well...not whole day yet, after this, I'm gonna have my dinner(hungry~~~), watch tv and so-on, check back...maybe tomorrow, I'll see if I can update my blog, bye!

-The Admin-

Day 1

2008-07-01T19:40:00.005+08:00

Welcome back to another award winning edition of.....cheh! just kidding. Welcome back people! How're feeling today? Ok, let's cut to the chase, here's how it goes. I come back from sch, go online, check wwe.com and the first thing I see is RAW has NO WORLD CHAMPION, WTF!!! (Before I proceed, I must tell you people, this is mainly for wrestling fans) I mean c'mon, Cena, Batista and Kane all lost their title matches, WTH?!!! After that, I thought RAW was gonna be boring cause they officially have no world champion, anyway, after checking wwe.com, I did my usual things, check friendster, facebook and a couple more things online then I tried to update my blog, guess what happen? the freaking com hanged!!! After that, I tried restarting the com and see if I can use the internet but I couldn't as a result, I couldn't update it on the 30th. Other than that, my day was practically watching comedies, eats, sleep, usual stuffs....btw, I have a confession to make, I did something bad today(30th June)...but I won't tell you guys what it is, cause if I do, ppl WILL start making stupid comments...anyway, that's all for today....bye! And I won't say love you guys cause I don't even know who's reading this, it might be someone I don't feel comfortable with...so that's all.

Eugene, a.k.a. -The Admin-(just for this blog)

Prologue

2008-06-29T00:21:00.014+08:00

Welcome everyone to my blog! to the lovers, u're welcome to read, to haters, get the F*CK outta here! well...for starters...I'll just tell u guys common things about me ^^

name : Eugene(Lim Weng Eu)
d.o.b : 19th June(Gemini baby! XD)
age : 16(not so sweet this year)
email : eugene_thisfireburns@hotmail.com (add me if u guys want to but I won't add F*CKERS)

~LIKES~

-WWE
-John Cena(my best friend gave me my first WWE action figure for my b'day this year!^^)
-Randy Orton(3 letters, R.K.O.)
-Eric Liung(my best friend til' we both die)
-my family(hmm...so~so i guess...haha XD)
-Yu-Gi-Oh! Trading Cards(my most treasured card, Blue Eyes White Dragon...)
-McD's Vanilla Milkshake(it's nice~~~)
-Chicken Lasagna(why is Secret Recipe's one watery a lil' bit?)
-my phone(always wanted it and I got it)
-my psp(one word, Booyahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!)
-Summit USJ(simply 'cause there's a shop that sells cards ^^)
-Art(it's kinda becoming one of my three passions)
-internet(one of the few things I thank GOD for)

-DISLIKES-

-vegetables(most of them)

-S.o.B.s :

>rashidi(YOU'RE GONNA GO TO HELL!!! and I don't give a crap if I spell your name wrong, who the F*CK cares about YOU?!)

>aizuddin(YOU"RE GONNA FOLLOW YOUR GAY FRIEND *^* TO HELL!!!)

>j.b(stupid *sshole that keeps on shouting "wo wo wo wo" like a F*CKING idiot)

>azim(laughs like a F*CKING retard)and a lot of other *SSES

-SMK USJ 13

-not having any cash

-doing what I don't wanna do

-other ppl telling me what to do

-F*CKERS

-mah chao hai's

-and lots more of other stuffs

to the haters and the hated, BLOCK YOUR LUNG LAH!!!(go ask someone translate it to chinese then you'll know what it means).ooo...btw, remember that I told you my best friend gave my my first WWE action figure? well, I decided to take some pictures to show you people how it looks like ^^ Check back for more updates, bye!